Black and emotions

Im black but my skin tone is a lil lighter. Im black cuz my strong genes come from my mother who is almost darker than most. My smile is bright like my moms. My frown is like a tiger. Alone in this wilderness. Bad as I want the one thats for me the one is out of order for the time being. As you all know we dont got much time on this rock. Deep down i wish my light was here. It makes me whole like itself realizes. I see it and my body reacts. i dont wanna fuck unless its her. She kno who she is.. stand up im standin as much as i can at this current moment. this world cannot exist if it felt my emotions. it would explode. my mind heart and soul is strong alone. but i wish i had her here now. im impatient its obvious but its for a good cause . my heart.... I FLAT LINE...........Im another BLK nigga as dem reports call it with all my love and emotions my colors blind..........