My First Love

First off before before I speak on my title of this blog I would like to let you know that today is just one of those days where I am like emotional(no homo though). Like one of those days and or nights you spend thinking about significant moments throughout your life. And one of those things that I was thinking about that kept me up most of the night was thinking bout my first love. Imma start it off like this...... I remember the first met it was through my bestest pal in the whole world Johnathon A. B. Bohannon ( AKA Scooter). Yeah! We picked her up from a hair appointment and when she got into the car and noticed I was in the back seat she turned around and it was like she feel in love with me at first sight. Because she just could not stop staring at me. I was like she was in a daze or sumthing and it really did creep me out cuz in the back of my mind I was like why in the hell is this girl looking at me like this. From then on I don't remember details about every single thing so bare with me. But what I will tell you is what I do remember about her and how I felt about her. I never knew when I met this girl that my life would change forever far as having deep thoughts about her. Cuz I had girl friends and stuff like that before that I said I loved. But I didn't even know what love felt like till I got to know this girl. She was different very different until this day I can say she still is different in a very special way. This is why I fell in love with her. Just like most relationships start off they start with the met and greets then phone calls and dates and visits. But with her every thing was an adventure to be cherished it truely is that is why I am sitting at my computer writing about sum of them. After we really got to know each other we was inseparatable. If you see her I am with her and vice versa. It was like she completed me and I needed her more than she needed me type deal. I remember times when I wasnt or could't be around her I would feel sick like my heart was slowly dying or sumthing. I would seriously feel sick to my stomach I would feel weak and without life. One of the greatest things I got out of being with her is her gift to make people laugh cuz was so silly just like me. She is the only person till this day that made me laugh the hardest the longest and the loudess. Most of those times I usualy was crying cause I was laughing so hard. We always did every single thing together we enjoyed each other that much. Both of our parents was like arent ya'll tired of being with each other all the damn time literally. My mom would say Jarvis you not tired of her being up under you all the time. I would say no but I could explain to my my at the time cuz I didn't think that she understood that I was really in love with this girl. One of the things that did break my heart being with her at times is when we did fight jus like any couple is I could not stand to she her cry. OMG please don't cry it broke my heart when she did and I hated when she cried cuz she was my baby. I felt like crying when she cried. My Baby! Everything we did together was always special. Everything every moment was special even the bad moments. We broke up a couple times though. But get right back together like 5 minutes later we both was that special and at the same time so drawn to each other that neither one of us could even seriously think about not being with one another. One thing I loved to do from time to time is watch the sunrise early in the morning. So one morning I took her to virginia beach to watch the sunrise. OMG this was one of the greastest moments in my life. We spent time on the beach chillin and even had sex on the beach but we was both trippen out cuz people lol was actually walking on the beach while i was inside her and then we was trippin out lol about a damn segal that to me looked funny cuz of the way it walked. I never had sex with her except for those need to get it in quickess. But all the other times we made love. And we did this very often very very often lol. It would be dayz spent where thats all we did. Do it sleep wake up do it sleep wake up do it then sleep. What I felt with her was almost unreal. Deep down knowing she has such a good heart and was so caring is what attracted me more to her each and everyday when we where together. I loved her family as if it was they my own. Lol I just remember when she almost tried to kill us though when she got mad at me. I was speeding down 95 on the way sum where I can recall but we got into an argument about sumthing and I I could remember is I was doing like 85 90 miles per hour and my baby gone grab the steering wheel and tried to run us off the road into a ditch. It was near the second chesterfied exit the one where you can go to 295 and hopewell. I say this lil part cuz I was watching a comedy the other day and the guy was like you can tell when your woman really loves you if she hits you or try to kill you. It might sound bad but its true in my opinion because I knew she loved me its just I upsetted her so bad at moments she could not lol restrain herself from striking me. I never felt so strongly about a girl in my life. Even till this day I haven't been able to come across this same emotion I felt with being with her. LOVE I mean like the die for type love. Yeah I ran into another girl after we had officially broken up that I said I Loved. But it was never like it was when I met my first real love. I still love her to this day but time and a lot of heartache has changed me in ways. Even after my love broke up she was always there for me I mean always there. Thank you for always being there for me even when you think I didn't appreciate it. Its people like my first love that really and truely make this life worth living and this world a better place. Thanks for reading and jus know my first love you are still my first.............................