On My Mind

Shit I been thinking bout my family alot. I been thinking bout alot of shit including money, women, my life in general and what means most to me. At the current moment I am kinda like most people I would say most of us don't really know what we need we just know what we want. It's funny cuz I know what I need. But I am chasing wants. I listen to what people tell me when they talk to me so I'm not making shit up. For example I feel like every thing I heard so far evryone wants and needs someone with them. A partner in short. You gone be with me till Im gone or vice versa or god willin we die together. We or most of us want that. Is it what we need tho. Maybe. I want a woman I can be down with for life. There is one thats proven so much to me over the years but I think I fucked that shit all up. Its nice to know her cuz she has a big heart regardless what you think about her. So now I am just gettin off auto piolet and thinkin bout really havin someone by my side. I can't live this life alone if I want but my heart is not tryin to let me. It's constantly telling me to share it. (My Heart) At times I resist its urge to open it up. Number one reason people play games and if not they not focused. That leaves me lonely right now like others out there. But its cool cuz I believe in fate. If its meant to be it will. If not you will soon find out if not already. My generation is all screwed up and I am a product of this shit. Its funny cuz I seen this crazyness coming even when I was little thats why I constantly was thinking about killing myself or dying. But I have learned I can't die yet until my physical, mental, and soul served its purpose. So now I starting to get a lil mo focused on my family. Cuz they are always there for you. Imma be there for them too. Other than that I think about you all that I met. If slept with you chilled or talked to you imma pray for us all especially for myself. This life is crazy..................