Sadly

Sadly I still face drama kings and queens. Im almost ready throw In if you feel me. Pay me! Sadly some people just won't learn till they get fuck up or hurt more they just have to decide which way. Sadly I still care and wanna be the person thats says sorry first my bad. What ever it may be worth to ya. Sadly we still live in a place where people less fornunate than us are getting murdered and raped. Sadly I done sum shit that should never happened and by no means am I proud of that shit. It makes me sick as a matter fact cuz i knew better but I was a dumb ass. But ayy I am still here living learning listening. Sadly some people don't realize what they got till its gone. Its true as hell. Its certain things that I miss bout people that I really could have benifitted from In the last two years. Sadly I am depressed as hell and don't give a fuck. Im lying I love my mother if it wasn't for that bond niggas watch out. She keep me sane to a certain extent. Sadly another black woman is going to raise another baby by herself. Not because the father was not there but the father that was there was played to the side like his fucking soul did not exist. Sadly I still drink alot to help me sleep. After I wake up sadly people still acting like donkeys. Sadly I felt like burning everything up including the one that made me feel this way. I been sad for the last 7 months not because I wanted too. A real man was there for his son Bunny ears. But his son was taken awake by a ignorant bitch. I wish I could say sumthing less harsh but I cannot. Ya feel me. It is what it is. Sadly some woman need a real man but won't ever find it. Some men been hurt to the point where there is no return to what brought him there to love her in the first place. I am sadly a man that had to go threw and still going threw this. What father and real man that has a child looks at another persons baby and you see what you had and its simply taken away shit nigga he aint yours. I was there with her threw the whole birth experiance. Dad will you cut the cord? I wore the same clothes for 2 days to make sure she and my Bunny Ears baby was ok. In the hospital lookin like a goddamn fool. Sadly I felt like crying honestly. Why cuz imma a rare breed thats there for you baby and mama. Im here!! Sadly this depression has altered my mind frame far as thinkin clearly. Sadly I meet alot of promising women and I have a very promising woman that been there fo me. But I been sooo goddamn hurt my eyes bleeds when I cry. Like my heart was with him when he sleeps. The first week he slept on MY CHEST cuz hes mine and aint nuffin gone take him away from me. Sadly I still have flash backs about that shit man. One of the things I regret even now is I never want to hurt nobody. Who doesnt talk shit. I do. But for those that took it a little bit mo personal than others man. My bad yo. I am human being that makes mistakes just like you. Sadly I have to face sum of them now. Its sad when someone still hates when someone says sorry and has way to much to even factor haters in there equilibrium. Dont understand if you want to. Just know things are much simpler than it appears. Sadly im bout to go to sleep cuz im sure someone needs to hear what I have to say...........